Maybe

There was a time that I wanted to die.

I wore long sleeved sweaters to hide the scars of the cuts I made that I thought would help the pain.  (They didn’t) There was a time where I couldn’t see anything that made life worth living. I had given up.  I was ready…..to just end it all.  As I was preparing  to leave the world of pain I was living in, my Mom found me and told me, “Maybe- maybe there is ONE THING you can find to hold onto. Maybe…if you find ONE THING  that means something,  you can find a way back.  I will help you. Just one thing.”  My Mom gave me her strength, and helped me learn how to do it myself.

From that moment, I found one thing everyday, sometimes every hour,  to hold tight until there were good days more than bad days.  I’m ok now.  In fact, I’m great. I held on until the sun came out again, and I’m glad.

This is my anthem to everyone who feels like there is nothing left worth fighting for.  Because there IS.  Life is worth fighting for.

maybe

There IS a way out of depression.  The bullies  will go away and life will get better. There is NO maybe about it. It really does get better. All you have to do is #BeBrave and hold on. One thing- on day- one minute at a time.

Maybe

I’ll pick up my own pieces
Put my life back together
Fading scars and healing cuts
Make my world hurt not as much
Greener trees and bluer skies
We can finally escape the lies
That had us cornered
By our own thoughts
We’re no longer caught

Maybe I can finally get better
Maybe I won’t have to hide behind these sweaters
The weights off my chest
I can finally breathe
I can finally rest
Maybe I won’t have to run
Maybe I can feel the sun on my skin
Maybe for once
I can finally win

I’ll climb out of my bed
Shake the thoughts out of my head
No one else could save me then
So I saved myself instead
Dry the tears
And wipe my eyes
Silence all the cries
That had me haunted
Trapped inside
But now I won’t have to hide

CHORUS

I won’t cry anymore
I can see life as more than a chore
I can feel my heart
Without my mind getting sore
You can push but I won’t fall
You can’t make me feel small
For so long I was down
But now I’ll stand tall

CHORUS

Maybe…..

by Ally Del Monte ©2104

all rights reserved.

Happy Mother’s Day, Mom.  Thank you. I love you.

 

 

 


3 Responses to Maybe

  1. Krissy says:

    What a touching song! Thank you soo much Ally for sharing your struggles and fears, as well as letting others know there IS light at the end of the tunnel!!

  2. Lydia says:

    I have chills. What a powerful song. Thank you for sharing.

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